曾经看过一个很有趣的漫画叫妈妈的样子，孩子希望妈妈有个大大的耳朵，可以听清他说的话，有个匹诺曹的鼻子，这样不会总是骗他，有四双手，这样就有时间陪他，嘴巴上有个开关，开始唠叨时可以把嘴巴关掉，身上装个灭火器，随时可以熄灭无名火。

   我不时的在想，十八年母女PK，你眼中的我是不是这个可笑摸样？

   前段时间，偶然发现了你出生时挂在医院床头的小卡片，那时的你连名字都没有。刚出生时，你安安静静，我突发奇想让你的睫毛长长，就用指甲剪剪，结果不小心 碰到了你的小脸，血一下流了出来，我吓得大哭，而你只哭了一声就睡着了。你是这样一个安静而可心的宝宝，我却是个毛毛糙糙的妈妈。

   长大点，你是个活脱脱的假小子，在院子里和小伙伴爬树摘花，踩着滑板车从高坡俯冲，骑着自行车到处飞窜……我想，如果可以，我要让你一辈子快乐。于是别的小朋友在补习功课时，我带着你学游泳、电子琴、画画、跆拳道……一切你感兴趣的东西，即使你的兴趣只有三分钟。你爸还调侃我要把你培养成十八班武艺傍身。

   在你失去阳光般笑容的三年里，也是我心情最糟糕的时刻。还记得初三那段噩梦般的日子，因为学习压力大，你把自己关在房间偷偷的哭；考试没考好，把卷子撕得稀碎发泄心中的苦闷；每天补习复习到深夜，疲惫不堪的抓住一点空闲补觉，即使不断努力离目标还是有距离……，我看到原来那张生机勃勃的脸，被分数打熬得痛苦、疲惫、麻木、眼里失去光芒，我的心也在煎熬。我对自己说，即使能考出满分，这也不是我想要的女儿。

   我十分庆幸，一次偶然的机会我们选择了枫叶。在枫叶与众不同的教学模式下，我自信开朗的女儿慢慢的回来了，并成长得越来越独立。在家里啥也不做的你，突然学会了洗衣服、整理衣柜，把自己打理得井井有条；从面对外教不敢开口，到与他们成为朋友……在心里，我不断对你说——宝贝，你真棒！

   宝贝，你不断长大的过程中，妈妈也在与你一同成长。你第一次站在舞台上主持节目、第一次与同学站在大街上为学校活动募捐、第一次在舞台上表演戏剧，我也 通过你的成长深切感受到与人沟通的重要、与人更加宽容，为了你我去学习烘焙并成为烘焙达人。我很高兴能让你和同学们在中秋节一同分享我的手工月饼、能在万圣节给你送去饼干作为惊喜，并在你们最重要的毕业晚会吃上妈妈做的甜品。我希望在你成为我的骄傲的同时，我也是你的骄傲！ 

   宝贝，从现在起，开心翱翔吧，飞越大海、飞向远方。虽然妈妈不在你的身边，但你是我的眼、鼻和心。以后，由你告诉我那个美丽国度的蓝天大海、路途美食，还有你不懈奋斗的未来。

  “妈妈是个很开朗很积极的人，对待生活一直充满热情，不断追求新鲜事物，虽然并不是特别伟大，但她对任何事都坚持自己的原则，这点让我受益不少。妈妈对于我来说，即是朋友，又是导师。小时候教导我穿衣吃饭，到现在的为人处世。尽管她的年龄渐长，但心态去一直年轻，每当我遇到伤心、难过或者开心的事，我都会和她分享。因为她的热情开朗，我也学会了热爱生活！”

    I had once read a comic book called “How my Mum looks like?”. In that book, a child wishes that her mother has a big ear, a Pinocchio's nose, four hands, a switch in the mouth, a fire extinguisher in her back. With these, this mother could always hear what the child speaks, could not lie to the child, could have two more hands when she is too busy to be together with the child, could switch off the mouth when she is about to criticize the child and could extinguished the fire of fury when she is mad about the child.

   Sometimes, I am wondering how I look like in the eye of you during the past 18 years we being together.

   Recently, I accidentally found your birth card which was recorded with birth info when I gave birth to you in the hospital. I can still remember that you haven’t even been given a name at that time. You just　sleep in the bed. A idea suddenly came to me that I use a nail scissor to cut you eyelash. People say that it could make a baby’s eyelash grow much longer by doing this. When I tried to do this, I carelessly touched your face with the nail scissor and the face started to bleed and I was scared to cry, but you just fallen to sleep again after only a cry. You were a so well-behaved baby and I was a so careless mother then.

   After that, you grew up just like a saucy tomboy. You climbed the trees to take the flowers on the trees, you rode on the scooter and bikes with your pals. I wish I could keep you live like this forever if possible. So I took you to learn swimming, playing piano, painting, taekwondo , to learn anything that you might be interested in. 

   The three years in the junior high school was a period when you lost your sunny smile, it was the worst period for me as well. I remembered those days were just like a nightmare especially when you were in your third year in junior high school. You locked yourself in your room and cried for the heavy burden and the pressure of the study. You torn up your test papers for the poor result of the scores.You kept studying until the late night and had no time for sleep. You really worked hard but you are still far from your target. I saw you happy and vivid face were turn into a pain, tired, numb one. I was also suffering from this change. I told myself this is not the daughter who I want or you should be.

    I feel lucky that we chose Wuhan Maple Leaf International School at that time. Due to the distinctive teaching mode of Maple Leaf, the self confidence and optimism came back to my daughter and you became more and more independent. The girl who had never do any housework changed into a girl who knows how to do laundry, to make her life organized. You also improved your English so much that you became friends to the foreign teachers even you were so afraid of just talking to them at the beginning. I told myself all the time that I am so proud of you!

   During the course of your growing up, I also grew together with and learned from you. Your first stage performance as a host, your first fund raising activity on the street for the school events, your first drama play not only proved your growth but also inspired me about the importance of communicating with people, being nice to the people. For you I go to learn and become good at baking. I am so proud of making moon-cakes for you and your classmates in the Mid-Autumn day, making cookies in the Halloween and dessert in the most important graduation part. I hope that we could both be proud of each other.

   My child, from now on, I hope you could be happy all the time,be happy to fly over the sea to the far land.Although I might not be able to company you any more, I know that you will be my eye, nose and heart. You will tell me the blue sky, the stories on the road and your wonderful future in the new place.

   In the end, I want to thank Maple Leaf for this “Life is a self-improving journey” interview assignment which lets me know what I look like in your mind.

 “My Mum is a optimistic and active person. She always has the full enthusiasm to life and curiosity to the new challenge. She might not be a great person, but she has her own rules for anything and she will stick to them which inspired me. Mum is a friend, a teacher as well to me. She taught me how to eat how to dress when I was a kid and how to behave when I grew up. I am always be willing to share with her whenever I am sad or happy. I learn to love the life from her.”